The Essence of Truth

Feeling into my truth

As a human being, I am in this world.

As a Soul though – I am beyond this world – I am not of this world. None of us are. This is a truth that feels so right to me. This truth felt so honest and sincere for me after my Mom passed away 2 years ago. I felt this when my dad passed too – 6 years before my Mom did. But I didn’t trust what I was feeling then – I was still very much stuck in my head. The process to begin trusting my heart though had begun.

When my Dad passed, yes I felt the truth of these words in my heart – but I didn’t understand what I was feeling. I didn’t trust my own intuition. I didn’t trust or even understand what “my truth” meant. I had to go through the process of realizing my belief system was based on other peoples belief systems. This process took me a few more years and the painful loss & passing of my Mother to truly understand myself and what this meant for me. Feeling into the essence of these words with a curious mind and an open heart helped me, not only feel my way through the grieving process of losing my parents but it guided me towards a truth I also knew and felt in the depth of my heart. We are all so much more than our physical human body’s and mind.

We are IN this world, but we are not OF this world.

When you have lost someone very close to you to death, the human heart is very broken. Seeing beyond the pain of losing someone you love is so hard to do. All you feel is loss. All you feel is how unfair it all is. All you feel is the absence of their presence. Oh, what I would do to sit with my dad again on a Tuesday afternoon and listen to his endless stories that he loved to tell of his life. Oh, what I would do to have my Mom with me again – in one of my many fitness and yoga classes that she always attended. Oh, how I would love to have them back with me.

This is the experience of “being in this world”

A world where I still live and they no longer do.

However…when I remember that yes, I am still in this world, but that I am not OF this world – this belief – this natural truth I believe in so strongly now, allows me to remember that Mom and Dad are not in this world with me anymore – they are not OF this world. They are beyond this world. And I remember from the depths of my heart – that I am not of this world either. There is a place where we are not separate. There is a place where I can visit with them and feel their love and support and communicate with them through my heart and through my willingness to believe that they both walk beside me everyday. They hold me up on the days that are really tough to get through. They whisper words of encouragement on the days when my inner judge is really loud. They remind me to hold my head high when my inner ego doubts my worth. They shine a light when I am afraid. They are my biggest cheerleaders as I get myself over my obstacles and experience success. They hold me through the failures and learning experiences and their words of wisdom help get me back up again. They are with me always.

When I grieve them terribly and feel the unfairness of losing them physically in this world, I can not feel them or hear them. Then I remember that I am not of this world and I go to that place in my meditations where I see them, hear them and feel them again. They never leave me though – it’s simply my human that stops believing. When my human remembers it is not of this world, it aligns once again with my Soul and I feel them again.

This is the place I prefer to be, communicating with them, feeling their love and support. Yet as a human I need to find balance in this world. I can easily get caught back up IN this world I live in. Only to once again remind myself that I am not of this world – so that I can hear them again.

The best part of this process is that in this space they always give me signs. Whether it’s a sunflower popping up outside my window at the end of October, a dime on the floor where I swear I just walked by and it wasn’t there before, a Blue Jay singing to me in the morning when I really needed to be reminded of my Dad’s words or the clock that I see every morning and evening at exactly 7:22am and pm (The date my dad died July 22nd) which I KNOW is Dad connecting with me and affirming I am not crazy! They speak to me through my oracle cards, they direct me to places and people that I would never have noticed before. I am closer to both my Mom and Dad now then I ever was while they were IN this world with me AND that is saying a lot because we were an incredibly close family!

I am in this world but I am not of this world. My human lives in this world right now and when my physical body is no longer in this world, I know that my soul continues on because it is not OF this world – it is way beyond this world. Where my Soul will take great joy communicating with my loved ones who are still in this world!

This is my truth. It feels right to me. It feels right within every fiber of my being. So much so, that my human sees this life so much different now. I see beyond this world I live in. I see, hear and feel into the world beyond.

This brings me peace and reminds my human to;

• Not take this life too serious.
• Be happy, no matter what.
• LIVE.
• Stop being afraid of anything in this life.
• Stop judging myself or anyone else.
• Stop resisting what is happening and go with the flow.
• Forgive everything, everyone and every situation.
• Accept myself and everyone else just as we are.
• Accept the ups and the downs, the rights and the wrongs.
• Appreciate every moment and every breath.
• Let go of my attachments to this physical world.
• See & believe in the best case scenario
• And most of all – it reminds me to love with all my heart.

Namaste my “in this world and not of this world” friends 🙂

Leslie